Sweet Times

So much has happened to me since I last posted. Well I found out on Wednesday that my Uncle Henry died in North Carolina, so that means that I have to take that 6-hour drive alone. My mother & grandparents in tow. It was cool because we got to stop at the Waffle House in Richmond where you can get a whole breakfast (waffle, eggs, grits, sausage, toast & hot tea for only 7.00!!!).
But before we got to Richmond to chow down, we got stuck in an invisible traffic gridlock in Northern Virginia

Traffic & my leopard print steering wheel ;)

Well as soon as we got through the traffic, I was doing 80 on Cruise Control in Black Thunder aka #TeamImpala !!! The ride down was good and I was glad to be in the car with my wonderful family. They are everything. The only bad part is that my cousin cooked a beef pot roast (I haven't eaten beef since before Thanksgiving...) and my stomach rejected it!! Pain!!! But it was good to be around my amazing cousins. 

Mere at the Waffle House ;)

 I was so glad to get to Chapel Hill... I realize that I couldn't live there because everything (of value) is 10-15 miles away and it reminded me of living down the Eastern Shore of Maryland where I went to college! Everything is spaced out!! Can you say rural!!! But I would live in a main city like Raleigh or Greensboro.  It was so peaceful to wake up to a rooster (Yes a ROOSTER) was crowing around 7:30am when I woke up. I didn't know where I was!!! But I knew I was safe!!!

Daybreak in Chapel Hill, North Carolina ;)

The funeral and the proceedings were okay. I have never seen a vault being put underground, but I guess they do things differently in the South. So the same night all of my cousins came past (I was the 2nd youngest) and all of a sudden felt young! I normally feel old, but it was a good feeling that I am still young & tender (LOL) Good times in North Carolina!!!!
I had a good healthy time with no spikes in my blood sugar because I have been taking my medicine and checking my sugar regularly. I am proud of myself! I have diabetes, but diabetes doesn't have me!!

Okay... So my 28th birthday is in 2 weeks and I always get the blues around this time. It's a time for reflections.. Well relationship wise, I have been with 2 of the most raggedyist (yeah I made a word up) negroes known to man 1. not a job 2. not a car 3. children (no bueno) 4. just stupid !!! Jesus be a fence!!! Please defend me from raggedy men!!!! #Amen.
As I turn 28, no more excuses. If you don't have the basics, then I can't be with you. Plain & Simple!!

Oh... I got braids in & they look good. I'll take a picture once they stop hurting!! Gym & swimming #Leggo !!

Peace & Love,

Mere ❤

Bittersweet

Well today my beautiful grandmother turned 81 years old today. She is such a beautiful woman and I would love to be half the woman that she is today. She has accepted me for who I am and has never told me anything that has steered me wrong.. 

However.. She has had conversations with her best friend, my mother, her hair dresser and even her neighbors asking them when I am going to have some children because I am getting old.. Well damn! I know that I'll be 28 in two months and the fact that my mother was married at 24 and had me at 26 isn't looking good for my case!! But on the other hand, I haven't found ANYONE that I wanted to have kids with. Now, I am not throwing shade at any of my exes.. They all have good qualities, just not father material. I don't want to have a child with someone who has to grow along with a baby.. That's not cool to me. But I really do want children, I just don't want to be a single parent, because my mother was (due to circumstances beyond our control). My mother did an amazing job raising me, by just accepting me means the most to me, but at the same time I can see how hard things were for her, which is why I was a relatively good child. I didn't act crazy, get pregnant at 16 or drop out of college........ But when my grandmother told my mother that she really wanted some great-grandkids while she was still alive really hurt me and made me open my eyes. I have such a supportive family and extended family, that even if I went out & got pregnant tomorrow I would be okay. But something is holding me back.. I don't know if it's my own fear or not. But I do want kids.. I was even thinking about IVF In vitro fertilization because I don't know anyone that I can see being connected to for LIFE with a child involved. My mother told me that if I didn't have a child by age 30, she would be open to me doing it in the IVF way and she would help with everything. Hmm.. That's a possibility. But I am keeping hope alive like Jesse Jackson.

I really do want to have a child, I just want to do it right (I'm not a control freak or anything). Like the old childhood rhyme goes "Chimere & ___ sitting in a tree.. K-I-S-S-I-N-G.. First comes love, then comes marriage then comes the baby in a baby carriage". This is old fashioned, but I am old fashioned too, which I've realized recently.  I love dinner & a movie... I love going to an art gallery & a picnic on the grass... I love an after the date kiss!!... But people have become so non-traditional in the way they live their life,  that the simple things don't come before them anymore... Ho Hum

Well. I'm still doing the Tagged thing... And some people have had jobs, cars & no kids.. So we shall see. I'm giving it another chance and being more open minded (see previous posts) into men of Baltimore.. We shall see!!

But anyways.. Happy Birthday Mama! I love you!! 81 years young!! ;)

Mere ;)